What in the world am I doing here?

“I admit that I haven’t yet acquired the absolute fullness that I pursue, but I run with passion into His abundance so that I may reach the purpose that Jesus Christ has called me to fulfill and wants me to discover.” Ephesians 3:12 (from The Passion Translation) This scripture delights me. It is so amazing that Jesus not only has a purpose for my life, but He also wants me to discover it. Well I say, Jesus have Your way!

Looking back on my life, I can see His patience in helping me learn, every day of my life, in the tiny, manageable portions my feeble soul could absorb and build on at that time. This process, of learning my purpose in Christ, is lifelong and never ending (till I get to go home). When I have stubbornly refused to learn, which I regret extended most spectacularly for me from age 13 to at least 30, I was totally unable to see or understand any part of that purpose. During those early years, when I believed I knew everything I needed to know and really didn’t need God to ruin my plans, I constantly ran into walls I didn’t know I had erected myself. Then, I felt sorry for myself and cried out in self-pity for God to pull me out of the pit I had both dug and fallen into.

Thankfully, as I have aged, I got tired of working against God and have become more open to listening to Him and better able to follow His lead.

But the truth is, I still don’t understand hardly anything about this world or how God works in our lives.  What I know for sure is: He works.  All around me.  Every day.  And I know that He loves me, not because of anything I do but only because He created me and wants more than anything to have a relationship with me.  That is what I hope to convey to anyone willing to read my words–that the God who created the stars and mountains and oceans wants to have a RELATIONSHIP with each one of us.

Of course, if you aren’t interested in talking to or hearing from God, the easiest thing to do is to stop reading.  But if anyone out there wants to explore “what is the width and depth and length and height–to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge” (Ephesians 3:18-19 NKJV), then come along with me.  I don’t have many answers. You’ll have to allow God to reveal those to you personally.  But if you are only willing, He will.

Here is something to ponder.  What is God doing in your life today? If you look for Him, He will show up.  If you don’t look, you won’t see it.

It really is that simple–seek and you will find.